saw my aunt's pictures in facebook yesterday. how time flies. she seemed so alive, smiling her usual sunny smile. but she's already gone, nine months ago.

our lives are short like the dash on a tomb's epitaph, one author wrote. that's right. so many of us think that we are the captain of our own ships. we don't even know when our Creator will demand back the breath he gave us, we can't even control the time when we will leave this world...so much for being the owners of ourselves.

I am about to cry. I just want to give up. Why is it so hard pleasing these people? maybe because they want their money's worth. i never thought working will bw this hard, would be this demanding, would be this discouraging. i am tired. and only after a few weeks work.

i don't have a fixed employer yet. Lord, please help me find the right job, where i can grow and do what i like.